When I launched my own FIRST 100 Day challenge to have 100 consecutive days of being Alcohol Free (AF) back in 2016, I rolled into 2017 with the aim/goal of hitting 300 days out of 365 days AF. Well that didn’t happen back then… but my stats keep improving … from 2016 with 209 Days AF to the next two years (2017 and 2018) with 263 days AF.
This 300th day spans over 2018 and 2019 as I had intended on August 12, 2018 to quit for good… but veered off course. But I’m not letting this bring me down. By far… after reading this incredible article – Some Pitfalls of Early Sobriety: Avoiding the Fuckit Bucket and in particular this passage below…
I feel empowered that I keep pushing forward with the intention to improving my health as an overall goal. That’s why I love the community support that has been built into the groups that I lead… where we cheer each other on – whether someone has 1 day or 4 days or 2 years… we are all striving to change our relationship with alcohol.
The point is not always for someone to be done for good – although in many cases we find moderation simply doesn’t work and as this article spoke to – that negotiating play that comes to mind is all part of the process. I’ve printed the article to have it handy as part of my #SoberToolbox and will go back to it when my mind starts to play the ‘F&ck it’ mind game.
I’m learning… that I’m an empath and that I’m super sensitive and when I allow things to overwhelm me I crash. It’s in learning WHY we crash that we can avoid future slips. For now I’m committed to #DryJuly and ending my One Year Experiment on August 12th with this 300 Days in the bag… but still mindful of ending the full year in 2019 with at least the same 300 days to up the stats from the past 2 years at 263 Days.
While Annie Grace (author of This Naked Mind and The Alcohol Experiment) said that we shouldn’t always be counting down sober milestones or days, but rather counting other things such as milestones of when you started sleeping better, or when you had more energy, etc. I’m a numbers girl, so for me looking at the stats and seeing that I’m over 90% of the time AF is a huge WIN for me in comparison to one year where I only had about 18% AF days.
I also track my overall health improvements via my posts in our groups on Facebook and via my blogs here and on SparkPeople. I love Facebook most of all as it brings up memories and shows me just how far I’ve come but it also shows me the patterns that keep repeating and it arms me with the tools to change those too!
The journey to LoseDaBooze will look different for EVERYONE because we are all unique on so many levels. But the community that brings us together in strength is knowing we are not alone in the battle to overcome the addictive pull that booze had on our lives! If you’d like to join in one of my groups – check out my Facebook page and friend me or message me and I’ll send you more info.
It’s never too late to be what you might have been!