There’s such beauty in the beginning of each day – no matter what yesterday was. I’m trucking along on Day 4 AF … and while it’s early in the game and I’ve been here before many times, I’m savoring each day, each sober moment.
I have a hangover this morning – but not the kind you think of. It’s a migraine one – that lingering headache is still there (day 2). It bothers me because it’s been so long since I’ve had one (and I had them frequently before). I know part of the reason I had frequent headaches before was my excessive drinking which made me be ‘unhealthy’ in other ways (eating bad foods, not working out, etc.). I do also acknowledge that part of the headache is also related to the great stressors I’m experiencing with my kids. I got another ‘bomb’ dropped on me yesterday with my 17 year old telling me about an incident that happened to her when she was 15. It was surreal to hear it and I’m still processing it and will be for a while as we work through this one now.
I thank GOD that each day is a new life because it means no matter what happened yesterday or in my daughter’s case 2 years ago – there’s hope in a better and brighter future. With help (counseling) and support through family/friends and in my case, with this sober blogging world, I will get through this.
I sometimes question about this whole ‘being tested’ notion and wonder at times – ok God … enough with the testing to see how much I can handle. I’m full up! I need a break and I do sincerely believe that there are GREAT things that lie ahead for me – even today on this new day. Life is what we make it – every single day – with every choice we make. Despite all the bumps in the road, I’m going to keep rolling along this sober car.