I was taking my walk along the river tonight and as always, was reflecting and flashes of sober memories came back to me – from years ago and the feeling of how good it was to have ‘good times’ without it revolving around alcohol. These moments of clarity make me realize just how much I was washing out such good memories with the drunken haze of the booze.
I don’t know if more memories will come back, but I do hope that while I’m sober my memory will improve. Gone are those days when I pass out and don’t remember half the night. Such a waste.
There’s just so much life to live and so many great things to do – that spending time debating the whole drinking issue simply should not have any place in my life – for now for this 100 day challenge, but as I’ll keep repeating – perhaps for good! As I read about those who decided to have a drink the night before and how the next day they feel shitty – well I was tempted by wolfie last night but didn’t cave and feel pretty great about that!
I had an extremely productive day at work – getting the tasks done that I always procrastinate over and it felt great to get it done! The same is happening at home. With all the extra time, well there’s so much I want to do and explore, even sober I find the days flying by and that’s a good thing… because at least now they are not flying by me in a booze ridden haze. I will remember these moments clearly and this blog will allow me to come back and reflect as I continue this ride in the sober car.
So that moment I had with Wolfie yesterday – that little crack… it’s filled up today and I didn’t fall apart! I’m going strong, one quarter of the way to 100 days!!