Today is day 258 AF for me… and it took me a long time to get here. What I have learned is that you can’t make anyone ‘get it’ and it’s something that has to grow as part of their own desire.
I remember when I first tried to do a 100 day stretch back in 2013 and I could barely string along a few days AF – let alone 30. In that year I managed to do ONE 30 day stretch and couldn’t muster up the will to do another.
If I am honest – it’s because I wasn’t really REALLY ready to do so. Until I was 100% ready to let it go (the alcohol) – I would come up with excuses or justifications to say it was ok to drink and I wasn’t that bad.
Even now, over the past week or so – my mind has been talking to me saying that it wouldn’t be so bad to have some drinks but I resist because I know how hard I worked to get here.
I have to remind myself of my WHY… and as you string along some days and start to feel better you sometimes forget WHY you started in the first place.
Sobriety is something you have to work on every single day. It does get easier and the voices get less loud and less frequent, but they have a sneaky way of creeping in at times (especially as the nicer weather approaches). The difference is about staying the course in terms of why you chose to quit completely or why you decided to take a break and perhaps be more mindful of when you do drink.